It’s been a month since I’ve really been able to write on my blog, not because the kids have not given me any material, heavens no. I did start a new job and have been trying to concentrate on it and not the ongoing dilemmas that happen in our family.  

I had hoped that the on going issues with my daughter would subside.  Through tough effort to get her a good therapist with great credentials and to get her connected to Uber for transportation, she still questions why she goes to a therapist.  Why is it that the parent sees the reasoning behind this and that in the long distance future I might get a thank you.  Hmm, not waiting for that.  My daughter has a lot of pent up issues from her disability and school. Maybe that’s my issue since we did not get her diagnosed right away.  Regardless of how it happened, it happened and she now needs to get it out and resolve it,  Someday she will see this will help her.  College is a challenge to my daughter.  She is struggling with the major she has taken and I wouldn’t be surprised if she changes.  Quite honestly I wasn’t in line with her choice, but it was her choice. I feel she has much different strengths, but what I see and what she acknowledges are too different ideas right now.  Along with the stress of school, her therapists she needs a med change.  In the world of doctors this is a big struggle to get a different doctor in each location in which she lives, her home and college.  The doctor in which was recommended in the area of school, doesn’t like to return calls and the doctor at home has no time when she does come home.  Really, how much more aggravation can one person take. It will figure out but why is it so difficult.  I wish with every question I have, there would be an answer.  None seem to come to mind when the issue presents itself, only down the road. Eech! 

My son on the other hand is so much easier than my daughter.  Much less drama.  His issues are having the school system pay for his school and the constant struggle I face every year.  I have had a psychologist evaluate him and he cannot go to a local school.  The amount of children in the school would overwhelm him and he could not function.  Actually they recommended a private LD school but I don’t want him to go to boarding school.  I want him to stay close in High School.  This will be my legal battle with the school system that charges my an arm and a leg in taxes.  I do have a good lawyer  but it’s still a battle.  The other day I was driving home and asking myself why,  why  aren’t my kids like everyone else’s? Maybe they are and I just don’t see all the issues everyone else has.  So my question stands, Where do I go from here?